Wow, it's been a while...

I know, apologies all around for my umm... absences.  But you know that feeling when you get behind and there's so much to catch up on, that you can't quite swallow the gumption to sit down and write it all up, however long it takes?  And then, in my case, it mounts higher and higher!  Anyways, until it topples from the sheer weight of guilt.  And I'm very, very sorry, but it might be slow going for a while because I don't have my computer.  And it's all H's fault for dropping it (accidentally!) off his bed, but you'll hear all about him in a second or two... or thousand.  Ha, I'm a bit frazzle headed, huh.  So, updates!

I'm not seeing Patrick anymore.  It's more than a bit weird, really, how easy I found it saying goodbye to a long(ish) relationship.  On a scale of 18 years, anyways.  But really, for the last month, you could physically hear it crash and burn.  It was the kind of crash that stirs no reaction, like the pilots are frozen in time and no one does anything but watch.  So, here lies Patrick, March '07 to November '08, may he rest in peace and disturb me no further, Amen. *sign of the cross*

And then sometime in late September (the weekend before the 29th*, he says), H and I went out to a bar, played a few rounds of pool, got nice and tipsy, and ended up having some really awesome sex.  And then again about 3 hours later sometime in the night.  He wasn't sure whether I actually remembered it and apparently had this whole weeklong crisis of faith about how to tell me.  But I remembered everything, I just didn't want to say anything because I was so confused!  He finally grabbed some kohones and we both agreed that, considering just the pure amount of sexual tension that exists between the two of us, it was bound to happen.  Then, being the brilliant two people we are, we went out and did the same thing the next two weekends!  And we've been fucking on a daily basis ever since...

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you've got a great friend and, hell, there may be sex too, but you'd rather not get any more serious because you'd rather have a best friend for years than a relationship for months?  Indeed, I've identified my many fallacies...  I'm more honest and open with good friends and I'd hate to lose that.  I fret incessantly about what other think and I can see (whether it exists or not) the "what the fuck is that reasonably decent girl doing with that schlep?" look on every face we pass.  But with a boy who's desperate for the validation that come with having a girlfriend, it's hard to continue saying no.  So be a doll, and leave some advice in the comment below, dears.

We will hopefully return to our regularly scheduled sexy as I settle into things.  Like I've professed before, I have plans. ;)

- Bril

*Anyone else notice the oh-so-charming time overlap?